"Down again -- it seems a losing fight Yet, down again, I sit, to try to write" -Ted Leo

I was trying to think of something to blog about, and I was reading through my journal and found amazing haiku's, poems and short thoughts that perfectly piece together my life of the past few months, like:


"Dear self, door numbers one and two sucked. Next time take cash option."


"Reminder to self, don't trust ANYONE.
Living in matrix type world.
Take the pill that allows you to eat steak."


"Haiku:
I dated a boy
He sucked worse than your mother
Damn it all to hell"


"A stranger in her own world
Colors mix and sway
Finger painted smiles drip
And swiftly change to grey

Dip your hand in ink
And leave your mark upon the day
Don't worry what the others think
What they see in you, or say

Close your eyes and paint the image
That so boldly clouds your view
They see only whats been painted
But not what resides in you"


"Painted something amazing. Describe it? Puddle of oozy mess.
But it has my hand print on it and that makes it kindergarten greatness."


"Funny how life goes full circle and whats past finds you again.."


"I ate word soup today... oddly it tasted like chicken..."


"Well, sometimes you know whats going on. Sometimes you don't. Sometimes what you think you want is exactly what you really DON'T want but don't know it. And sometimes amazing things are coming to you and you need to be patient and wait. Sometimes life's a roller coaster that doesn't seem to ever stop. Sometimes it's a sailboat with out any wind standing perfectly still. But all bad ends. Good things arise. And happiness finds you. And sometimes you are so amazed at what life gives you, you cant even express yourself. Sometimes."