"What we do comes out of who we believe we are." -Rob Bell

My name is Leslie, and I:

*Am full of fears that not even I understand. I am creative but not talented, and that breaks my heart because above all else I want to be able to create things. I get mad easily, but I also get over it very fast. I'm extremely forgiving and don't hold grudges after, either forgive and forget or don't forgive. I've only had three boyfriends and all three have been long term relationships, I don't play around when it comes to love. I've never cheated on someone, but have been cheated on. I was hit by a guy I 'dated' when I was a teen and it's caused me to be very guarded, I don't trust people very easily but once gained it's hard to lose. Because I've been cheated on so much I wonder if I'm enough to make a man happy or if I'm doomed to always fall short. I'm self concious and have been anorexia in the past, and I'm scared to death I'll end up back in that place. I love romantic guys when it's how they are, I hate when people pretend to be something they aren't. My favorite things in life are silly... the feeling of the cold water as I swim, the smell of rain after a big storm. I like to travel and go on road trips because I'm away from everyone and everything and I'm completely free to be whoever I want without limitations and I don't feel that when I'm living my normal life. I want to get married and have children and I have no fear of taking that step, I fear more marrying someone who is doing it because its what your supposed to do. I don't think I can have kids of my own, but am very thankful God gave me a heart that wants to adopt. I want to change the world and make a difference, I would leave for Africa tomorrow if I had the chance to work there. I want to be the change I wish to see in the world. I love change in my life, but fear what it will bring. I'm trusting of God's plan but always seem to think mines better. I'm a "good girl" who finds it annoying that that is a bad thing nowadays. I hate writting blogs about myself because I feel like it makes me seem full of myself, which is weird because that's what a blog is. I have an amazing relationship with God and want to make it even stronger. I want to be a better person, do better things and be in a better place. I want my life to be a fairy tale even though it's cliche. I'm obnoxious and loud when I want to be or extremely shy and reserved when I don't. I'm a lover of people and get along with everyone, but once you hurt me and lose my trust it takes a long time to earn back. I'm searching for a man I can spend my life with, I don't sleep around or date a lot. I hate clingy and jealous guys, they drive me crazy. I've never been with someone who actually seemed to care about me, so I tend to not expect much when I am dating someone..

Uhm.. I'm out of things to say. I hate writing about me....